Saturday, June 19, 2010
What is my comfort zone and is it really comfortable anymore?
My comfort zone changes daily. No sooner do I wrap my head around what's going on (literally I'm talking 1-2 days), get whacked out from unseen situations, get totally out of balance, deal with it, come to terms with it and get whacked again in one or two more days, everything coming from outside of my being.
I've chosen to Go With the Flow because it's the only way I can deal with our life, these days I have to be in this mode. WhatEver It Takes. The other day I felt like there was a vortex above my head and I couldn't stop it until I came to terms with what was confronting me. That vortex has never happened to me before. It's always been in my heart or solar plexus. The next day I was walking through 'the Great Indoors' store just to do absolutely nothing, just be, when all of a sudden my dilemma turned into peace and I knew what I had to do. Literally, two days later......Wham! But the vortex wasn't there. I had to just let my emotions be there, know that I have absolutely no control and not worry about it or whatever might come next.
I am thankful for my childlike spirit. The spirit of a child who can experience one feeling one moment and move to another feeling in the very next moment. Not having issues buried and not dealing with them. I can move on. It's a hard one for most people to understand. The judging from other's is that I really have stuff going on that I'm not dealing with. That may have been true earlier in my life until I saw that it did not serve me well, it made me crazy. I started letting go of the worry, the story that was so hard on my psyche. I have been this way for years, many years now, when worry arises it is truly in the moment. I can go from being totally out-of-control-crying to being done with it, moving on to being happy in the very next moment. It's taken me a long time to get to this place but I did and am so very glad I did the work. It gets easier with every difficult moment I encounter.
I am grateful for that. I've been judged by others for having feelings one moment, and moving on and not being believed that I am not feeling the same thing in the next moment. I am very, very lucky. Judgement by others is harsh. Judgement from yourself is equally harsh if not harsher.
It has been written......
"Do not judge by appearances, but judge with the right judgement" -Jesus
I say.......
"Do not judge by appearances.....have no judgement at all. When you look at me, look into my eyes, into my soul. Do not give me the once over....look into my eyes, see who I am. Listen to my words, do not be distracted and I will do the same."
As with worry, I realize quickly when I'm judging and just as soon as I have that realization, I stop. I am again grateful for my spirit, the help of God or the Universe to help me see. I see.....I am grateful.
I just got well after being very sick for a long period of time with several illnesses one right after the other. Understand that what happened to me was then. Do not look at me or think of me as being ill. I am doing well. It's time I take care of myself, better. I have One Life and I want to be here for a very long time to Enjoy All the Adventures that Life brings! Guide others to me who bring lessons for me to learn, and for whom I have lessons to give, as well. So Life, BRING IT ON! The more experiences I have the more I can help others. That's what I'm here for.
I Am a "Wild Woman", I Am "VIBRANT WOMAN", "I Am True Heart" who experiences life daily and Lives life PASSIONATELY! I wouldn't have it any other way. I am filled with Love and Compassion. My Heart is Full.
Namaste'
"DON'T WAIT HALF YOUR LIFE FOR LIFE TO COME TO YOU WHILE ALL THE TIME IT'S INSIDE YOU WAITING TO BE LIVED"
- Dick Seeger (Artist/Author)
Carla Reeves (Founder and Designer of Sanity Journals and The Journaling Lounge) wrote: "What is my comfort zone and is it really comfortable anymore?
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