Monday, November 9, 2009
TIME. . .
Time. . .Where does it all go? Yesterday I was born, yesterday I was a little girl, yesterday I was a teenager, yesterday I was graduating from High School, yesterday I was pregnant, yesterday I was married, yesterday I was a new mom...NOW they are all grown up with children of their own.
My feelings are raw today, my eyes swollen, tears falling, my heart hurts from unkind spoken words. I realize it happens to many, but today, these are my raw feelings.
My feelings are raw today, my eyes swollen, tears falling, my heart hurts, my Time...my employment time has not been planned well. I didn't want to go to college when I graduated from High School, I wanted to be married, I did; and be a mom, four times. Time...where has it gone? I've not done enough right things in my life to be employable, the paper trail that shows what you've accomplished. I've many accomplishments, but am I employable, apparently not, especially in these difficult times, others come first that have more qualifications.
How do I be okay with my choices? I just let life lead me. I was standing at the waters edge watching my life sail by and I didn't even realize it. Time...where has it all gone? My life isn't over, not by a long shot. I've many accomplishments and many more to come. But, how do I find work, employable work, one that I get paid for in return? How do I turn this around? I want to help others and I probably would know what to say...but, for me...Time, where has it gone? I did not choose well to be employable. Life, my life is staring me in the face, what do I do? I want to help others. Of course, you have to live that which you teach. Yes, I understand, pay attention. This is a time of AFGO'S for me: Another F_ _ _ _ _ _G Growth Opportunity!
I played a game to see what animal I am:
"The PHOENIX- You are a phoenix at heart; you display a fiery and passionate soul within. In Mythology, the phoenix is considered as one of the strongest and most feared creatures all throughout history. The phoenix personality represents a very lively, passionate person who often is not afraid to show their true feelings and stand for what they believe in. Although they might not get along with everyone, a phoenix is sure to stand out from the crowd and bring a warm atmosphere with them. Often very artistic, a person whose spirit represents the phoenix is not afraid to express themselves and their feelings. The phoenix is powerful and will not back down from the things they put their faith in as well as will fight by the sides of their friends until the end of time. Although sometimes they may get hurt, a phoenix always finds the will and strength to rise back up. In relationships, they are romantic lovers and always follow their heart. If you look into their eyes, they are often wild and vivid - full of desire and and emotion clear as day. As the weight of the world bears down upon their shoulder, a phoenix may fade in their own flames and fall to ash - but as they rise once again from their ashes with new life, they remind us all that we have the strength within to always move on and never give in."
Hmmmm, I guess I just found the very things I stand for in this life. WHATEVER IT TAKES. I DO EVERYTHING AT 100%. I am Grateful.
Living Passionately,
AriZona
# posted by AriZona Williams @ 7:57 PM 
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